Quite possibly the hormones talking…
I wonder, is anybody ever 100% confident that they will have a healthy baby? Because I’m certainly not. I have absolutely no reason to believe that this pregnancy is anything but normal, nor that the baby I am carrying (and who is currently kicking the living daylights out of me) is anything but practically perfect in every way. And yet, for the life of me, I can’t. Stop. Worrying.
We have yet to buy anything much for the baby, because we wanted to get the Christmas spending out of the way first, and seeing as how we don’t have a nursery until we move house in the summer, we didn’t really want a ton of stuff lying around in the meantime anyway. As you may have noticed Christmas is over, which means I now have a green light to go mad and buy all of those gorgeous baby clothes I have been drooling over for the past 6 months (who I am kidding? More like the past 6 years!), plus get serious about all of the research I have been doing about prams and pushchairs etc. And am I? No. Why? Because it feels weird. I have started getting the odd nesting moments, in which I have, for example, searched the internet and put together a list of everything I need to buy before the baby gets here. Up to now, I have crossed the socks off that list. They were on sale in the local supermarket. And I spent hours, if not the next entire day afterwards paying attention to every little movement the baby makes, to ensure I haven’t jinxed things.
It’s ridiculous really. I feel panicky if I don’t buy stuff, because it makes me feel unprepared. I feel panicky if I even think about buying stuff though, because it seems so premature. What if something goes wrong, and I have a house full of baby stuff and no baby to put in it? I still just can’t get my head around the idea that in 3 months time, I will most likely be bringing a baby back to this flat, for good. It’s like I can’t allow myself to believe that, because the alternative is so dreadful.
Tell me I’m not being a total freak? Mums out there, were you ever totally confident that your baby would be ok until you held him/her in your arms?
I worried and worried until the very last moment that something would be wrong with her. Sometimes, I still do. Are her ears okay? What about her vision? I think it’s just your mommy instincts kicking in. We all worry, all the time, and usually it’s over silly things.
| Posted 1 year, 10 months agoWelcome to Motherhood! It is 100% normal to freak out over all of this. I got really freaked out after our nursery had the crib in it, OMG 1. we are having a baby. 2. OMG what if he DIES and I have this crib IN my house and alas, no bay- what have I done he will surely croak at any minute now that I have had the balls to go this far.
| Posted 1 year, 10 months agoSo, really- its normal and I worried about his health too. As the end approached we both stared wondering if maybe we shouldht have turned down all of those tests? And now that hes here, I still dont know for sure. Yeah, he is beautiful and sweet but his left ear failed his newborn exam and we have a very lengthy follow up on Monday to see if he has any actual hearing loss. Im sure its fine and after I know that, I’ll be on to the next thing.
Comes with the job. Just embrace it, i guess!
I worried everyday until she was in my arms. It wouldn’t be normal if you didn’t worry.
| Posted 1 year, 9 months ago